We are the bricks!

Remember we are the bricks in this whole (universal construction), we are placed this way! the moment we try to move from where we were placed firmly, definitely we'll get a hard push from every end ! isn't that amazing? Many of us already faced that, some view say live as it is, we can't disturb this utter whole universe, we are correctly placed where we are now. But what about we trying to move?when we try to do something?That's the thinking part of us, which believes that thought is myself, and I am placed wrongly, and i had to move for my existence...but is it correct way to interpret things around us?  For an example, when we go to a deep forest(or for that matter anything in this world not intervened by us ,the human) , which is the way it has to be, or the way it is designed long before you and me came to this world, but we see chaos, disorder in it ? why? because we see the we can place things properly for us? we can design this universe the way we want, and that's when we are actually disturbing this sacred order of nature, we are disconnecting ourselves from this programmed universe, the nature! We don't feel aligned to this nature...rather we feel, our thought defines the way the universe should be, forgetting the true self is a part of it! Think about it!

Choices!

This time I am having a different view regarding choices, I am thinking at a radically different way that I wrote a couple of years ago...

Err is human ! this is quite true when we talk about choices.When we plan, we think and we decide! there comes an err factor, which we judge later on and say we fail... we regret! But what if we don't make any choices! what if we don't make any plans to proceed! what if we just live life as it is.When something happens to us by chance, or which could be planned by someone unknown to us, then there is no judgement, that thing which happens to us is quite amazing, we feel happy about that and cherish those moments! See, when we make  choices there is a probability  that it may go wrong, but when we don't, which means we are clueless. Something happens all of sudden to us, that time we don't have any kind of involvement with the consequences, which will be always good. The x-factor in us(human-beings) always brings in confusion, dissatisfaction and sometimes failure as we feel. But when we leave the things as it is, as many of the times we cannot do anything about most of the things in our life!

Because of which I have to say, there is someone who is ruling, controlling us or might be we are the parameters passed to an unknown executable which will result to unpredictable things. As we are unaware of all these, better don't predict vague ideas regarding this, try to learn the symptoms of the program by watching the executable. The executable is our universe, the parameters are us/human-beings. Study the lives of great human beings which are greatest results of this program.Study the universe, travel around it, then you will have some sense of it, then look within to discover why you are here , your purpose of being here, that will make some sense then. Probably I am getting the things wrong in some of your eyes, but this is what i feel.I have enough time now to judge and to think about all these, but that takes me to nowhere. I always get confused with this ongoing pattern of the Universe, the world around me. We born, we have some desire to full fill, we rush and rush for it, finally we achieve and set new desires whatever may be the case, but these things are tried and tested by others(other parameters/human-beings in this universe). But what is the result? did we get any truth about us being here for some stipulated time between our birth and death dates? Now I am thinking, as a human-being and my err factor is with me and I am damn confused now:-(

what next...ummmmm

We plan rigorously and think that situation would be like this and we will respond to it like that, but end of the day nothing works. We had to think differently , we act differently and something that happens is totally different. I had a dream to persue my higher study in a good institute, so I planned to study by taking a break from regular monotonous job life, thought that this study would be wonderful and would repay me as a job, the way i want and I would  be having a different way of looking at things. But what i see now, is totally a different situation, don't know people value higher education in IT or not, is it only experience that matters? experience in what? doing the same a-b-c daily, and you expertise in doing the same? that every cat and dog does, there is no way of differentiation between humans and other creatures?
As a human being, I have a habit of peeping to the future, so worried for what will happen, what next etc. Definitely hoping for the best, lets see how long this hope lasts!

What we need ?

When I was a baby girl...my Mom kept on asking me to call Mamma..mama...to which I babbbled saying aaa..eeyeyeyy.Later was my favourite;-)
When my Father held me while walking ....I was walking and falling down.He was running alongside me, when I was learning to ride a bicycle.I was riding for sometime , the moment I turned back and didn't find him with me,I fell down...My father was standing too far ..:-)
I needed support through out my life, be it my parents, my husband,friends.... the hard core me always needed some sort of warmth, some loving words....So when I say I want to be independent, what do i mean?It only meant financially independent, nothing else. The truth is, I can't live without them, I need all of them arround, to make this life beautiful and meaningful.
This was just a self talk, I was talking to myself :-O....yes, all of us do.This could be true for most of us, we can't live alone, we need some support system to get ourselves going and running.We need some hands to hold us, we need some shoulders to cry hard....ideally we need others to be with us, but what causes the differences ?
This quote is worth reading....
"We are each of us angels with one wing...And can fly only by embracing each other" 
-Luciano De Crescenzo

Admiring ...Ratan Tata

Yesterday, I read one book regarding Tata Nano car,named "Uncommon Dream Project for The Common Man-Tata Nano,The people's car" by Pradeep Thakur. This book is a well compilation of several aspects of the building the Nano Car by Tata group. What I liked the most ,is the interviews with Ratan Tata before the release of the car, his contained answers to every question was amazing ....

Travel Wishlist...

Simply writing down my wishlist publicly may not make those happen in real but may provoke me, when I see this post, to fulfill my dreams of travelling.Here are some of my wish which I can recall now ;-)
1. Visit Paris with my husband.
2. Stay in England for 1-2yrs.This is because I want to know the original English breed of people and their habits & culture. Moreover it's my day dream to live in a country whose men ruled us for centuries.I just want to see how it feels like to be a Britisher, do they really think about, what and how their ancestors were? Are they proud of themselves or do they totally ignore the past?And many more queries.....
3. See Angkor Wat,Cambodia.
4. Love to see other parts of world like Italy, Sweden, China and Newzealand etc. the list would go on...

morning dose...

Woke up with a new hope...feeling refreshed , now I am more confident, enthusiastic about everything I am doing..:-)
Good sign to start a gr8 day !

With folded hands...

Give me some sunshine
Give me some rain
Give me another chance
I wanna grow up once again....

If we can undo and all that we can erase and sketch again, if this can happen,life would have been much simpler...but its not. Its a movie without retakes for us,its a sketch we draw daily, without eraser with us.

Current mood: Seriously need some boost....which can raise hope within me.Amen 

Ek kavita...complex thought;-)

बिखरते अहसास सब आये और जाये...
अनगिनत सब्दों के जाल में पड़ती हूँ...
किसको कहाँ लिखूं ये पहेली में फंसती हूँ.

में खोजूं किसको सुनाने ये अनकही बातें सारी
में क्या कहूँ किस्से ? जब मुझसे ये मन कुछ न कहे.

समझ में न आये, ये कौनसी पहेली चलती रहती हे मन में,
ढूंढे हमेशा किनारा हर एक बहती हुई लम्हों की धारों में....
क्यूँ हमेह्सा हम ढूँढ़ते रहते हैं एक उन्देखी राह को...
जब वक़्त आने पर ज़िन्दगी दिखलाती हे, कुछ और ही तस्वीर उन राहोंकी !!!

मन में अन्च्छुयें तार अभी खोल दो

जीवन के अनगीने पलों को खुलके जी लो..

मुस्कुराते हुए सीखो इन जाती ठहेरती पलोंसे ...किनारों की सपने बुनना छोड़ दो.

Random

Rational but are thoughts

All that comes to my mind

No reason to justify

Don't ask me why?

Oh...it matches well

My God! I wrote it this way :-O

It's your life...

Don't let someone become a priority in your life

When you are just an option in their life.....

So well said...took me years to understand this simple thing :-O

Remembering 2009

Year started with a visit to one special place.

Had my first ligament tear, hopefully will be the last one ;)

We bought a car, first one ;)

Left my job, joined one institute for higher studies.

Watched almost all bollywood movies of the year :)

My most favorite actor still remains the same but the movie is now 3-idiots.

Watched my first 3-D movie Avatar.

Read books but not many, best one was 2-states.

We both went for a long vacation, most memorable one.

Saw Sun Temple (@ Konark) after 11 years.

Kamyab nahin kabil hone ke liye padho, kamyabi to jhak marke piche ayegi….best line of 2009 according to me:)

Overall, the year 2009 was full of events, few are good and few are horrible, have learnt many lessons this year, and felt "zindagi ko ek jabardast ghumao dena he..." (from movie Choti si baat ;-)) which i think i did this year. keeping my fingers crossed and closing my eyes and praying for something...ummm NO!.. for many things :)