'Dreams are not what you see in your sleep, but dreams are that, which do not allow you to sleep', hence her motto in life is 'Dream with your eyes open'.....Dr APJ Abdul Kalam to Parvathy(1st runner up Miss World 2008)
Monday, December 15, 2008
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Some thoughts in office...
While working in support project I became lazy to a great extent. If work comes it comes like hell and if not then I feel like I’m in hell. Now I can understand the value of being with a team and colleagues around, as I am sitting alone working for a project whose other team members are sitting at different location. Now I am missing all my colleagues ;-) I could remember the day I joined my first company and those days of training and then posting in project, those days were like college days and that time we never thought everyone around us as colleagues. We all were friends though we work together in a team. It was always a fun to be in office with no work but hardly have we got such times. There was always moral support of friends (colleagues) around, never felt alone or left out as I am feeling now here.
As the days passed on, I shifted few companies and got to know what a professional life is, everyone seems professional, then got to know what a dirty politics is. Now I remember my days in a worst project I ever worked on, in addition to useless (to me) work, my team lead, my manager were all crap. Team was ruled by few sadists and whatever they do is legal as per that company policy. There I learnt the most, not technical stuff but apart from that, everything. And fortunately/unfortunately that was my first onsite. New place but nice, new people but are friendly and new project and new manager/team lead the worst that any industry would ever have. Finally the manager changed (How?? I’ll write the story in detail, in my autobiography may be someday..:-)), a new crap replaced him, fortunately I left that company by that time.
Now I am in a different company and here too I met one big boss, who is I would say one biggest blunder made by God, may be God was not in a mood at his workplace or may be was watching some K stuffs .But thankfully I don’t have much to deal with him in day to day work. In this project only thing I learnt is how to give thanks. Generally in support project you will get bundles of thanks whether you did something remarkable or not. If the issue is resolved then you are the king, though it’s different to say how it got resolved and what your role was. It makes me feel like I have done something and there is some value of me in this project. This was missing on my first project in my first company.
The best part of this project is fixed hrs of support and is helpful indeed. Everyone knows, how is it painful to work in general working hrs in IT companies in India (9am-6pm) always stretches out to 12hrs or more. In addition to this I can work from home :-)
Though everything is at its place how I wanted but something is missing that is my team who sits far and I’m alone here. No fun, no talks, no discussion of masala khabars :-(
As the days passed on, I shifted few companies and got to know what a professional life is, everyone seems professional, then got to know what a dirty politics is. Now I remember my days in a worst project I ever worked on, in addition to useless (to me) work, my team lead, my manager were all crap. Team was ruled by few sadists and whatever they do is legal as per that company policy. There I learnt the most, not technical stuff but apart from that, everything. And fortunately/unfortunately that was my first onsite. New place but nice, new people but are friendly and new project and new manager/team lead the worst that any industry would ever have. Finally the manager changed (How?? I’ll write the story in detail, in my autobiography may be someday..:-)), a new crap replaced him, fortunately I left that company by that time.
Now I am in a different company and here too I met one big boss, who is I would say one biggest blunder made by God, may be God was not in a mood at his workplace or may be was watching some K stuffs .But thankfully I don’t have much to deal with him in day to day work. In this project only thing I learnt is how to give thanks. Generally in support project you will get bundles of thanks whether you did something remarkable or not. If the issue is resolved then you are the king, though it’s different to say how it got resolved and what your role was. It makes me feel like I have done something and there is some value of me in this project. This was missing on my first project in my first company.
The best part of this project is fixed hrs of support and is helpful indeed. Everyone knows, how is it painful to work in general working hrs in IT companies in India (9am-6pm) always stretches out to 12hrs or more. In addition to this I can work from home :-)
Though everything is at its place how I wanted but something is missing that is my team who sits far and I’m alone here. No fun, no talks, no discussion of masala khabars :-(
Friday, September 26, 2008
Eastern and Western thoughts..
If you are not doing anything and not having anything in your mind, just go thru this piece of post and try searching yourself and add as many things as possible. How about Indian and Western thoughts? What? I know this sounds boring but I love to read and comment on these. Currently I’m reading one book ‘Indian thoughts and its development’ by one western author Dr. Albert Schweitzer. Now I’m in half of the book, yet to finish. I see thought process of my own land in an eye of one foreigner. We know our culture and practices as we are taught and told by our parents and elders, and by our own studies if our interest permits. And someday we analyze and find flaws in it, or in other words, we don’t find it correct as per our sphere of thought process. Yes we have our unique sphere of thought process, beyond which we can’t think, beyond which if something comes we fail to agree.
Life affirmation is backbone of western thought and Life negation is backbone of Indian thought.
Life affirmation exists in all human body, everyone lives life whether they like/dislike; its like something they have and they don’t want to loose. This is a normal human thought. Next is Ideal human being, who thinks about wellbeing of others, and entire human society. That’s how the western thought grows, with knowledge and ethics, ordinary human being is capable of doing anything and as a human being it has some duty to entire world and its peace and prosperity. See, this thought is so broad and open to everyone, no distinctions no restrictions. As per their traditional thoughts they have dual sense as opposed to monesthetic in eastern thoughts. Dual meaning, there sense is limited to two, that is good and evil. Whatever you do and wherever you go everything can fall into two categories good or evil. And yes, everyone will agree with this.
Now come to eastern thoughts, which I observed is self-centric. (No, don’t confuse with selfishness). As per eastern culture the sole purpose of human life is of enrichment of its soul and final destination is to submerge into the ‘Universal soul’ which is pure and complete where human being attends its highest stage ‘Nirvana’. The whole life would be spent as purification of soul (‘Atman’) and enrichment of it, to be eligible and attend the highest stage and to merge with ‘Universal soul’. This teaching is there in ‘Bhagwat Gita’. This highest stage is defined above all materialistic world, above all goods and evils we judge, happiness and sorrow we feel. Complete redemption of life. When we say Life, we say it is attached to the senses and all relative aspects. About which eastern thought says there is only one sense that is ‘Bramhan’ which is sole purpose of creations. According to Hindu thoughts, every living being has one pinch of it or say a part of ‘Universal soul’ and comes as a shape of one human-being or any living-being and finally merges to ‘Parmatman’. So knowledge and ethics are here too but to oneself and are passed to generation by generation thru teachings. And belief is too one, that is one ‘Universal soul’.
So both eastern and western thoughts say about one God, but their perception is so different. If you see logically eastern culture has different stages of life and has a goal defined and the process defined with rules and restrictions. But when you think practically these things are so difficult and seem impossible. And if we see current situation we will stick to western thought but actually it’s a stage defined in eastern thought, right? And you can see, if we will be in earlier stage and don’t want to attend the higher one, we would be in a death-fearing society. In higher stages, you will slowly depart from all these feelings.
I am amazed by these kinds of thinking…wow!!! I will finish reading the book soon and will again post my thoughts.
Life affirmation is backbone of western thought and Life negation is backbone of Indian thought.
Life affirmation exists in all human body, everyone lives life whether they like/dislike; its like something they have and they don’t want to loose. This is a normal human thought. Next is Ideal human being, who thinks about wellbeing of others, and entire human society. That’s how the western thought grows, with knowledge and ethics, ordinary human being is capable of doing anything and as a human being it has some duty to entire world and its peace and prosperity. See, this thought is so broad and open to everyone, no distinctions no restrictions. As per their traditional thoughts they have dual sense as opposed to monesthetic in eastern thoughts. Dual meaning, there sense is limited to two, that is good and evil. Whatever you do and wherever you go everything can fall into two categories good or evil. And yes, everyone will agree with this.
Now come to eastern thoughts, which I observed is self-centric. (No, don’t confuse with selfishness). As per eastern culture the sole purpose of human life is of enrichment of its soul and final destination is to submerge into the ‘Universal soul’ which is pure and complete where human being attends its highest stage ‘Nirvana’. The whole life would be spent as purification of soul (‘Atman’) and enrichment of it, to be eligible and attend the highest stage and to merge with ‘Universal soul’. This teaching is there in ‘Bhagwat Gita’. This highest stage is defined above all materialistic world, above all goods and evils we judge, happiness and sorrow we feel. Complete redemption of life. When we say Life, we say it is attached to the senses and all relative aspects. About which eastern thought says there is only one sense that is ‘Bramhan’ which is sole purpose of creations. According to Hindu thoughts, every living being has one pinch of it or say a part of ‘Universal soul’ and comes as a shape of one human-being or any living-being and finally merges to ‘Parmatman’. So knowledge and ethics are here too but to oneself and are passed to generation by generation thru teachings. And belief is too one, that is one ‘Universal soul’.
So both eastern and western thoughts say about one God, but their perception is so different. If you see logically eastern culture has different stages of life and has a goal defined and the process defined with rules and restrictions. But when you think practically these things are so difficult and seem impossible. And if we see current situation we will stick to western thought but actually it’s a stage defined in eastern thought, right? And you can see, if we will be in earlier stage and don’t want to attend the higher one, we would be in a death-fearing society. In higher stages, you will slowly depart from all these feelings.
I am amazed by these kinds of thinking…wow!!! I will finish reading the book soon and will again post my thoughts.
One random thought..
I observe myself, I experiment and sometimes repent. But I don’t mind as it’s my own decision. Why I do this? I don’t know, may be because I wonder while thinking about myself, I use myself because ‘me’ is the only easily available affordable specimen to experiment on :-)
Why I am writing this? That too I don’t know, some inner desire or sense propels me to do so. Sometimes we don’t think about but we do and we enjoy…may be these are all contradictory to human nature, not sure about it;-) We spend our life as we wish! Yes as you wish, no matter how many external forces imposed on you, it’s you who decide and react. In these circumstances do you realize a sense of freedom within you? Answer is one Big No !you say you are forced to do so because you have no choice; but truly speaking whatever you decide, you always have more than one choice….that is how you confuse and decide.
Think about it!
Why I am writing this? That too I don’t know, some inner desire or sense propels me to do so. Sometimes we don’t think about but we do and we enjoy…may be these are all contradictory to human nature, not sure about it;-) We spend our life as we wish! Yes as you wish, no matter how many external forces imposed on you, it’s you who decide and react. In these circumstances do you realize a sense of freedom within you? Answer is one Big No !you say you are forced to do so because you have no choice; but truly speaking whatever you decide, you always have more than one choice….that is how you confuse and decide.
Think about it!
Friday, September 12, 2008
Just read and think...
This is my favorite quote from the pravsworld site. Just thought of adding this into my blog.These lines are so true in everyone’s life. We born, grow, live and die…never found time to sit and think about how important we are by ourselves, how lovely are the dreams we saw and fulfilled them by our own. It gives us a different pleasure and eternal satisfaction when we make someone’s life a little better. Just relax and think when you did all these last time!!!
With nonstop workload, never ending plans of life, at the end of the day what matters is how satisfied I am and how happy I am about my pinch of life which I spent today… that gives you one good night sleep ;)
Things will change and problems will be resolved … not before the time, it’s the life we lead in-between actually counts!!!
Monday, September 8, 2008
You too plan ..???
I plan a lot. When I was a student, I use last few pages of my notebook to write down the dates and fill them with the topics/subj I have to read/finish. The same thing I did till I finished my engineering. Though I did this for many years, but I am still not a good planner. I fail to stick to my plans every now and then. When I ask others about this, they also say the same thing, then I get assured inside, not only me it’s same with everyone around me. Few things I observed are:
- Planning can be done for a week that is for short term. Short term plans are good, easy to stick to.
- You can do this in your mind(like a cron running and to be checked frequently), for this you need to practice a lot. And you should have a very good memory and processing power. You should have Information on the spot :)
- Planning’s to be done by self not by others.
- You start planning when you have nothing to do at all, you have blank mind and purpose is to do something. Otherwise you have really a lot to do.
It works when constraints and assumptions put by you exactly matches those of nature.
And it works well when you don’t tell others even a bit of it.
I am writing about day to day plans and hoping that it leads to implementation. Yeah I know, long term plans are needed but special cases are to be handled by special ones ;)
Now-a-days, I don’t plan at all. I know I won’t stick to it. I list down few things I have to do in some time-frame where this time-frame is unidentified variable :)
- Planning can be done for a week that is for short term. Short term plans are good, easy to stick to.
- You can do this in your mind(like a cron running and to be checked frequently), for this you need to practice a lot. And you should have a very good memory and processing power. You should have Information on the spot :)
- Planning’s to be done by self not by others.
- You start planning when you have nothing to do at all, you have blank mind and purpose is to do something. Otherwise you have really a lot to do.
It works when constraints and assumptions put by you exactly matches those of nature.
And it works well when you don’t tell others even a bit of it.
I am writing about day to day plans and hoping that it leads to implementation. Yeah I know, long term plans are needed but special cases are to be handled by special ones ;)
Now-a-days, I don’t plan at all. I know I won’t stick to it. I list down few things I have to do in some time-frame where this time-frame is unidentified variable :)
Saturday, August 23, 2008
One fwded msg worth reading..
zindagi hai chhoti, har pal mein khush raho... Office me khush raho, ghar mein khush raho... Aaj paneer nahi hai, dal mein hi khush raho... Aaj gym jane ka samay nahi, do kadam chal ke hi khush raho... Aaj Dosto ka sath nahi, TV dekh ke hi khush raho... Ghar ja nahi sakte to phone kar ke hi khush raho... Aaj koi naraaz hai, uske iss andaz mein bhi khush raho... Jise dekh nahi sakte uski awaz mein hi khush raho... Jise paa nahi sakte uski yaad mein hi khush raho Laptop na mila to kya, Desktop mein hi khush raho... Bita hua kal ja chuka hai, usse meethi yaadein hai, unme hi khush raho.. aane wale pal ka pata nahi... sapno mein hi khush raho.. Haste haste ye pal bitaenge, aaj mein hi khush raho Zindagi hai choti, har pal mein khush raho ..............
Thursday, August 14, 2008
Thursday, August 7, 2008
Why do we make mistakes….??
I sometimes ask question to myself, why I made so many mistakes which I knew can be avoided.
Is it because I was inexperienced, is it because of carelessness?
Since years, I grew up with these uncertain changes in life, infact everybody faces this, so I can’t say this is the reason why I did. And yes the outcome of your mistakes doesn’t always bad; sometimes you may end up with nice things. But then this is again linked with the destiny which I don’t want to discuss about here.
Sometimes I know that this is wrong, this is going to end me with lots of trouble, still I do that infact sometimes I loved to do that, sometimes I become impatient to do the same. Yes when I am lazy doing the other part, I do the things which I know are easy but wrong. Sometimes I feel by myself that what am I doing is right then I do. The later part of doing mistake is knowingly you are doing things, which you are aware of and you have taken decisions after analyzing the whole thing carefully. That point of time you feel this is the cent percent correct thing according to you and you are going to do it by whatever cost. After a period of time, you think about it and realize that this couldn’t have been done by you. But again you don’t have any other options in your life at any point of time. You just have to take decision and do it and move on. Every single point of time in your life is unique. It’s the way in which you are living. It’s unique of each individual, how they react or how they respond to the situation at that time. Some people don’t have time rather some don’t want to analyze what they have done, whether right or wrong. When we do that, we come to know things which we did could have been done in a better way without making that situation that worst which we did.
These kinds of introspections are required for each individual to grow in themselves. Am I doing better than the last time, am I reacting him/her/situation in a better way. These are the things which we can check by ourselves and yes sometimes your friends/family/colleagues remind you that you are repeating the same mistake you did last time or you have learned and modified yourself for a better person.
What I realized is that you are the best judge of yourself; you are the only finest critic of your deeds. So be yourself and be a friend of yourself. And periodically introspect yourself, that makes you aware of how and where your life is leading to. We all know that we are not going to live forever here, and we also know that we are prone to mistakes. These two things are complementary. And yes sometimes there won’t be repetitive situation in your life. So learn from your mistakes. It will be sole your decision how your life graph is moving. It’s only you who knows best how you are evolving as a person.
After thinking so much, I couldn’t find any logical reason why we make mistakes but yes I can say that….Make mistakes, learn and enrich yourself J that’s what I feel our purpose of life is..
And yes..I want to know how others feel about mistakes…
Is it because I was inexperienced, is it because of carelessness?
Since years, I grew up with these uncertain changes in life, infact everybody faces this, so I can’t say this is the reason why I did. And yes the outcome of your mistakes doesn’t always bad; sometimes you may end up with nice things. But then this is again linked with the destiny which I don’t want to discuss about here.
Sometimes I know that this is wrong, this is going to end me with lots of trouble, still I do that infact sometimes I loved to do that, sometimes I become impatient to do the same. Yes when I am lazy doing the other part, I do the things which I know are easy but wrong. Sometimes I feel by myself that what am I doing is right then I do. The later part of doing mistake is knowingly you are doing things, which you are aware of and you have taken decisions after analyzing the whole thing carefully. That point of time you feel this is the cent percent correct thing according to you and you are going to do it by whatever cost. After a period of time, you think about it and realize that this couldn’t have been done by you. But again you don’t have any other options in your life at any point of time. You just have to take decision and do it and move on. Every single point of time in your life is unique. It’s the way in which you are living. It’s unique of each individual, how they react or how they respond to the situation at that time. Some people don’t have time rather some don’t want to analyze what they have done, whether right or wrong. When we do that, we come to know things which we did could have been done in a better way without making that situation that worst which we did.
These kinds of introspections are required for each individual to grow in themselves. Am I doing better than the last time, am I reacting him/her/situation in a better way. These are the things which we can check by ourselves and yes sometimes your friends/family/colleagues remind you that you are repeating the same mistake you did last time or you have learned and modified yourself for a better person.
What I realized is that you are the best judge of yourself; you are the only finest critic of your deeds. So be yourself and be a friend of yourself. And periodically introspect yourself, that makes you aware of how and where your life is leading to. We all know that we are not going to live forever here, and we also know that we are prone to mistakes. These two things are complementary. And yes sometimes there won’t be repetitive situation in your life. So learn from your mistakes. It will be sole your decision how your life graph is moving. It’s only you who knows best how you are evolving as a person.
After thinking so much, I couldn’t find any logical reason why we make mistakes but yes I can say that….Make mistakes, learn and enrich yourself J that’s what I feel our purpose of life is..
And yes..I want to know how others feel about mistakes…
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