My new year day...

Happy New Year to all of you :)
I know I’m little late to wish.
First day of this New Year was different, actually first half was too good and memorable. After a long time one of my wish has come true. I wanted to visit and associate with one orphanage since I was in college, but never got a chance. On 31st I was working from home so I found time to search, got address and phone number of few of nearest ones from my home. I called on first number, they say its not an orphanage, it’s a training center but in yellow pages they were listed under orphanages, I asked them to rectify that.
Then my 2nd call to one of the listed ones, one guy picked up, I asked them about the trust and they say its not a orphanage, it’s a home! Yes that was a home for all homeless girls.
I got the details from him, there are 22 girls aged between 6-15yrs, all school going. I was happy to hear that. I got as many things as possible for them. Next day morning, that’s on 1st jan, we both went to that place. Before leaving for that place, I was hoping at least the place should be good else I wouldn’t have been in a position to celebrate my new year, how selfish I am!

We started at 7:45AM as we both have office on 1st jan. With the given address we managed to reach our destination. Little girls were ready for school after finishing their breakfast and some are yet to finish. Those who were not having school that day; they were all seated for their preparation for children’s festival starting from next day onwards. I saw entire facility by enquiring each and everything that was coming to my mind to ensure that girls are being taken care properly. I didn’t want to waste my money by giving them cash, they may misuse, so I got all useful things for them and chocolates. But that was not the case; the person who was managing that was a product of the same orphanage. By talking to him and listening to their organizing plans I was assured that they are making proper use of donations. I distributed whatever I took for them, then few left for schools and few said good-bye to me with New Year wishes. They were all happy with the things they got on New Year morning. I too was very happy :)

When I came home, I was thinking of my childhood, those were the days when I never stayed far from my parents. I was with them always and I want them to be with me. But these girls; few of them were street children, few are orphans, few are from single parents and few of them were left in hospitals from where trust people have got them to this home. With no parental support few of them were managed to study well, I enquired 2-3girls made top in their classes, that’s amazing! I am thinking if I would have in this situation I would not have made it what they are now. They were smiling at me after getting gifts and saying thanks, same time I was saying thanks to them for showing me this part of world, which exists without bothering anyone of us. Certain moments force you to realize the value of a home, relatives and being blessed with parents with you.

In case any of you reading this, please find sometime from your daily schedule and share some moments with these children. To get the details of these places are not so difficult, you can get the same from Internet or by local people. Verify the place by calling and visiting first, find the genuineness and then go there and share some remarkable experiences with them who don’t need you but you may!
You spend thousand bugs for a T-shirt but you can bring smile to 200 children by giving them Rs5/- chocolate or by giving them other necessary things. Just think which one is a better deal!

When Kalam Says....

'Dreams are not what you see in your sleep, but dreams are that, which do not allow you to sleep', hence her motto in life is 'Dream with your eyes open'.....Dr APJ Abdul Kalam to Parvathy(1st runner up Miss World 2008)

Some thoughts in office...

While working in support project I became lazy to a great extent. If work comes it comes like hell and if not then I feel like I’m in hell. Now I can understand the value of being with a team and colleagues around, as I am sitting alone working for a project whose other team members are sitting at different location. Now I am missing all my colleagues ;-) I could remember the day I joined my first company and those days of training and then posting in project, those days were like college days and that time we never thought everyone around us as colleagues. We all were friends though we work together in a team. It was always a fun to be in office with no work but hardly have we got such times. There was always moral support of friends (colleagues) around, never felt alone or left out as I am feeling now here.

As the days passed on, I shifted few companies and got to know what a professional life is, everyone seems professional, then got to know what a dirty politics is. Now I remember my days in a worst project I ever worked on, in addition to useless (to me) work, my team lead, my manager were all crap. Team was ruled by few sadists and whatever they do is legal as per that company policy. There I learnt the most, not technical stuff but apart from that, everything. And fortunately/unfortunately that was my first onsite. New place but nice, new people but are friendly and new project and new manager/team lead the worst that any industry would ever have. Finally the manager changed (How?? I’ll write the story in detail, in my autobiography may be someday..:-)), a new crap replaced him, fortunately I left that company by that time.

Now I am in a different company and here too I met one big boss, who is I would say one biggest blunder made by God, may be God was not in a mood at his workplace or may be was watching some K stuffs .But thankfully I don’t have much to deal with him in day to day work. In this project only thing I learnt is how to give thanks. Generally in support project you will get bundles of thanks whether you did something remarkable or not. If the issue is resolved then you are the king, though it’s different to say how it got resolved and what your role was. It makes me feel like I have done something and there is some value of me in this project. This was missing on my first project in my first company.

The best part of this project is fixed hrs of support and is helpful indeed. Everyone knows, how is it painful to work in general working hrs in IT companies in India (9am-6pm) always stretches out to 12hrs or more. In addition to this I can work from home :-)
Though everything is at its place how I wanted but something is missing that is my team who sits far and I’m alone here. No fun, no talks, no discussion of masala khabars :-(

Eastern and Western thoughts..

If you are not doing anything and not having anything in your mind, just go thru this piece of post and try searching yourself and add as many things as possible. How about Indian and Western thoughts? What? I know this sounds boring but I love to read and comment on these. Currently I’m reading one book ‘Indian thoughts and its development’ by one western author Dr. Albert Schweitzer. Now I’m in half of the book, yet to finish. I see thought process of my own land in an eye of one foreigner. We know our culture and practices as we are taught and told by our parents and elders, and by our own studies if our interest permits. And someday we analyze and find flaws in it, or in other words, we don’t find it correct as per our sphere of thought process. Yes we have our unique sphere of thought process, beyond which we can’t think, beyond which if something comes we fail to agree.

Life affirmation is backbone of western thought and Life negation is backbone of Indian thought.
Life affirmation exists in all human body, everyone lives life whether they like/dislike; its like something they have and they don’t want to loose. This is a normal human thought. Next is Ideal human being, who thinks about wellbeing of others, and entire human society. That’s how the western thought grows, with knowledge and ethics, ordinary human being is capable of doing anything and as a human being it has some duty to entire world and its peace and prosperity. See, this thought is so broad and open to everyone, no distinctions no restrictions. As per their traditional thoughts they have dual sense as opposed to monesthetic in eastern thoughts. Dual meaning, there sense is limited to two, that is good and evil. Whatever you do and wherever you go everything can fall into two categories good or evil. And yes, everyone will agree with this.

Now come to eastern thoughts, which I observed is self-centric. (No, don’t confuse with selfishness). As per eastern culture the sole purpose of human life is of enrichment of its soul and final destination is to submerge into the ‘Universal soul’ which is pure and complete where human being attends its highest stage ‘Nirvana’. The whole life would be spent as purification of soul (‘Atman’) and enrichment of it, to be eligible and attend the highest stage and to merge with ‘Universal soul’. This teaching is there in ‘Bhagwat Gita’. This highest stage is defined above all materialistic world, above all goods and evils we judge, happiness and sorrow we feel. Complete redemption of life. When we say Life, we say it is attached to the senses and all relative aspects. About which eastern thought says there is only one sense that is ‘Bramhan’ which is sole purpose of creations. According to Hindu thoughts, every living being has one pinch of it or say a part of ‘Universal soul’ and comes as a shape of one human-being or any living-being and finally merges to ‘Parmatman’. So knowledge and ethics are here too but to oneself and are passed to generation by generation thru teachings. And belief is too one, that is one ‘Universal soul’.

So both eastern and western thoughts say about one God, but their perception is so different. If you see logically eastern culture has different stages of life and has a goal defined and the process defined with rules and restrictions. But when you think practically these things are so difficult and seem impossible. And if we see current situation we will stick to western thought but actually it’s a stage defined in eastern thought, right? And you can see, if we will be in earlier stage and don’t want to attend the higher one, we would be in a death-fearing society. In higher stages, you will slowly depart from all these feelings.

I am amazed by these kinds of thinking…wow!!! I will finish reading the book soon and will again post my thoughts.

One random thought..

I observe myself, I experiment and sometimes repent. But I don’t mind as it’s my own decision. Why I do this? I don’t know, may be because I wonder while thinking about myself, I use myself because ‘me’ is the only easily available affordable specimen to experiment on :-)
Why I am writing this? That too I don’t know, some inner desire or sense propels me to do so. Sometimes we don’t think about but we do and we enjoy…may be these are all contradictory to human nature, not sure about it;-) We spend our life as we wish! Yes as you wish, no matter how many external forces imposed on you, it’s you who decide and react. In these circumstances do you realize a sense of freedom within you? Answer is one Big No !you say you are forced to do so because you have no choice; but truly speaking whatever you decide, you always have more than one choice….that is how you confuse and decide.
Think about it!

Just read and think...

This is my favorite quote from the pravsworld site. Just thought of adding this into my blog.
These lines are so true in everyone’s life. We born, grow, live and die…never found time to sit and think about how important we are by ourselves, how lovely are the dreams we saw and fulfilled them by our own. It gives us a different pleasure and eternal satisfaction when we make someone’s life a little better. Just relax and think when you did all these last time!!!
With nonstop workload, never ending plans of life, at the end of the day what matters is how satisfied I am and how happy I am about my pinch of life which I spent today… that gives you one good night sleep ;)
Things will change and problems will be resolved … not before the time, it’s the life we lead in-between actually counts!!!

You too plan ..???

I plan a lot. When I was a student, I use last few pages of my notebook to write down the dates and fill them with the topics/subj I have to read/finish. The same thing I did till I finished my engineering. Though I did this for many years, but I am still not a good planner. I fail to stick to my plans every now and then. When I ask others about this, they also say the same thing, then I get assured inside, not only me it’s same with everyone around me. Few things I observed are:

- Planning can be done for a week that is for short term. Short term plans are good, easy to stick to.
- You can do this in your mind(like a cron running and to be checked frequently), for this you need to practice a lot. And you should have a very good memory and processing power. You should have Information on the spot :)
- Planning’s to be done by self not by others.
- You start planning when you have nothing to do at all, you have blank mind and purpose is to do something. Otherwise you have really a lot to do.

It works when constraints and assumptions put by you exactly matches those of nature.
And it works well when you don’t tell others even a bit of it.

I am writing about day to day plans and hoping that it leads to implementation. Yeah I know, long term plans are needed but special cases are to be handled by special ones ;)

Now-a-days, I don’t plan at all. I know I won’t stick to it. I list down few things I have to do in some time-frame where this time-frame is unidentified variable :)